A Whisper

As I have written before, music has a way of moving me when I am struggling and then really helps me get in tune with His Word and what He is trying to show me. This season has been rough. It is not my first rough season and may not be my last. Last year, at this time, we were walking through one of the most difficult seasons. Now, we are walking through another.

I have been wrestling a lot with Him as this one started. I just thought, really....I felt like I had just got through the last season. I was not prepared nor did I feel like I had the energy.

I was also struggling because I had been very intentional about being obedient and taking what I felt like was some pretty big leaps. It became very dark and I was deeply struggling to find His light. And truthfully, I was angry. I was confused. I was broken.

I pushed myself to be in His truth and to listen to worship music, but I was still struggling. So, he started reaching me through others posts and remind me that His plan and purpose is for a reason. I began to seek more and even though I have listened to this song many times, one day it just broke through.

My prayer was found in these lyrics...

"Over all the noise,

Let me hear Your voice,

Come and silence every lie inside my head"

And I began to remember....

"To the growing fear,

To the deepest doubt,

Oh, there is a promise loud enough to drown them out"

And I began to remember what I walked through last year and where I was today. How much He grew and stretched my faith. How much He drew me closer to Him. How He placed someone in my life who has become a beacon for me and one of my closest friends. How He taught me so much and made me realize that letting go and letting Him work is the way to reach up and let Him pull me out of the darkness...

"The moment that You speak,

The moment that You breath,

It changes everything, at Your whisper.

My freedom in the sound,

My heart will know the power,

of mountains moved in me,

At Your whisper."

He then gave me a small glimmer of hope in one conversation that gave me something to hold on to in the waiting and it was then that He changed my mindset and began to show me that this was just a season of learning and growing and sometimes it can't be easy and I just need to trust and remember the promises He has given us through His Word....the most powerful of truths....

"And if You say it, I'll believe it,

Long before I ever see it,

If You say it, I'll believe that it is true."

Then she goes on to sing...

"With Your whisper,

You speak in truth,

And You're speaking love right now.

You're tearing down the lies,

You're tearing down the doubt,

With Your whisper."...

..."Your truth is casting out the lies,

Your truth is setting us free now.

So we believe You,

We will take You at Your Word."

Thank you, Jesus for reaching me and giving me something to hold on too in this time.

So into this season I go. I will speak truth to remind me to trust and I will hold on to His promises when the pain gets to be too much. I will welcome the growth and being drawn closer to Him and know that what will happen in the end may be more than I could ever hope for.