Loss, Love and Light
It has almost been 8 months since I sat here and allowed my words to find themselves in this space.
A lot of life has transpired in the past 8 months. I have found myself in a lot of different moments of growth, of suffering, of joy and hope…and then four days ago, I found myself shattered. My incredible and amazing Grammas passed from this life into the next and stepped into the arms of Jesus and my dad.
Anne Elizabeth Breyfogle was the most incredible woman I have ever known. She was more than just my Grammas, she was the most foundational person in my life. There was never one moment in my life that she didn’t love me, fight for me, cheer for me…If I am half the grammas she was…
I loved spending weekends with her…even in high school, I would spend weekends with her. We had movies we watched a million times, we would eat cabbage soup, sit on their pier…I loved to be with her.
As much as I feel the loss, I know I have not yet truly absorbed it and that is okay. Because in the past 8 months, God has taught me so much that I feel more prepared for the slow burn that comes with loss and no one deserved to be at peace more than her.
Even though the loss is heavy, I feel so deeply loved and covered in His light. He has been so ever near and as I spend time in His Truth and in prayer I know that when the grief comes, He will hold me near.
I have beautiful people in my life who have prayed, shown up and just loved me.
I feel more prepared for this season that I have seen Him bringing forth.
My trust in God has grown so much. I have never felt more strong in my faith, in what I believe and more secure in who I am growing to be.
This isn’t some huge revelation blog, but the start of trying to show up in this space as the person I am growing towards and to mark a moment in my life that was shattering, but also made me see just how much my faith and trust in Him as grown.
As I close and think about the incredible woman who shaped my life, I am so thankful that for almost 45 years I was loved by someone who loved me as unconditionally as He does.
